Just Can't Get Enough

Between everything that's been going on in my life and going around the world........... I don't even know where to start. *sigh*

I know there's no excuse for it. I shouldn't even try to justify it. The guilt consumes me, though.

I just want to stop feeling so damn bad and guilty. I know I can't turn back time and there's nothing anyone can say that will make me feel better about it.

But it has to be said.

I forgot my husband's birthday.

Not a day late. Not two days late. But THREE days after his birthday.

When did I realize it? During Earth Hour.

The kids and I were alone at home while their daddy was at work and I was telling them stories from my childhood and Buddy was asking me how many birthday parties I had when I was a kid. Note that the word "BIRTHDAY" still didn't strike a chord in my severely demented mind. It wasn't until Buddy was asking what I'm giving him for his birthday this year, that the dendrites and neurons and axons and whatevers in my brain started making it's connections.

You see, Buddy's birthday is exactly 1 month AFTER the husband's. So when he asked me what I'm getting for him, my first thought was "Man, I should really start planning, his birthday is LESS than a month away". And THAT's when it HIT me.

OH. MY. GOD!!!

Yes, I literally shouted and it freaked the kids out. They immediately jumped on my lap. Earth Hour darkness, see.

So yeah, I forgot my husband's birthday. I am not proud of myself. Bless his heart that he didn't give me a hard time about it. His "nonchalant-ness" about it all makes me feel even more worse. Smart man, my husband. Although he knows how I WOULD  react IF he were to forget MY birthday.... hmph, don't even. But all he said to me was, "It's okay.. you're sick, you have the kids to think about, and your work, and the house.. so it's okay that you forgot". It's NOT okay. For me. But he just wants me to drop it. *sigh*

I'll drop it for now. I've ranted long enough. So I dedicate this song especially for my husband..

Even if I forgot your birthday this year, I won't forget how I felt about you then, how I feel about you now and how I feel about spending the rest of my life with you by my side.. because I just can't get enough... I love you. You're the best. 



p/s: Speaking of forgetting, I beg you don't forget our friends in Japan and what they're going through. The lives that were lost, their lost homes, broken families and broken spirits. Read more on safe ways to donate to Japan.

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